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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 16, 2010 18:34:01 GMT -5
I looked at his neck, and licked my lips. I stopped myself. I couldn't take his blood. I found myself continuing. Against all of my thoughts telling myself to stop I had him pinned down on the ground. "I'm so sorry...." I whispered softly in his ear as I leaned forward and bit into the side of his neck. I kept on drinking the blood that filled my mouth until I found the strength to stop. I got off of him. Tears fell as I waited for my punishment. I knew I deserved to be punished. I'm becoming a monster...
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Post by Luna on Nov 16, 2010 19:13:14 GMT -5
I growled and stepped back, my eyes narrowing into bright blue slits. "What the hell do I need to do?" I growled.
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 16, 2010 19:45:08 GMT -5
I stepped back as an instant instinct. I was trembling with fear. "I'm so very sorry... Beat me if you must. I know I deserve to be punished." I said as I hid my face in my hair. Tears were falling. I was so ashamed of myself. I knew it was best if he beat me though. I couldn't become more of a monster than I already was...
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Post by Luna on Nov 16, 2010 20:01:16 GMT -5
I sighed. I knew I had no alternative... but then, obviously, all the beatings I'd already given her hadn't had any lasting effects. I needed a new alternative... my eyes slowly landed on a whip. I froze. Beating her with a whip was so very different - but also, I knew necessary. Before I could stop myself, I grabbed it and cracked it against her back. The scent of blood came to me immediately, metallic and strangely salty, and I winced. How vampires could like that crap...
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 16, 2010 20:23:58 GMT -5
I squealed when I felt the whip hit me. I fell to my knees quickly from the instant sharp pain. I did not expect that, but I was sure he felt that beating me with a metal rod wouldn't get it through easily. It hurt a hell of a lot more than the rod did... I was sure if he had to start beating me like this every time I tried to kill myself or bite him then I would be paralyzed quickly.
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Post by Luna on Nov 16, 2010 20:28:40 GMT -5
I continued for a long time, putting close to all my force into each blow, until her back was completely crimson and the smell almost pushed me over the edge. I threw it to the side, wrapped my hand around her arm, and yanked her to her feet. "Will that stop you?" I growled.
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 16, 2010 20:37:37 GMT -5
I nodded softly as the tears continued to fall. I felt my knees wanting to give on me and fall back down to the ground. I was in so much pain but I deserved. "I'm so sorry. I promise I won't do it again..." I said softly, looking deeply into his blue eyes.
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Post by Luna on Nov 16, 2010 20:41:03 GMT -5
I sighed. "Good, because I don't ever want do to that again. Ironically, despite all of it that I've spilled, I can't stand the smell of blood." I picked her up and held her gently in my arms, as I always did. "Sorry, Princess," I murmured.
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 16, 2010 21:20:37 GMT -5
"Don't apologize... You did what was best. If you hadn't done that I don't know how I'd end up. I'm sure that I would lose all of what little control I have over myself. I'm sure I can control myself now that I know how bad it's going to be if I do it again... I just have to keep that in the back of my mind and hopefully it'll work. If not, and don't get mad at me when I say this because I'm dead serious when I say this, you'll have to kill me..." I said softly. I knew that if I couldn't control myself I'd have no other choice but to die. It would be the only way. I was not going to kill random people...
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Post by Luna on Nov 16, 2010 21:24:26 GMT -5
I stared at her in silence for a moment, then shrugged. "If I have to kill you, I will," I said calmly. "But let's hope it doesn't come to that."
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 16, 2010 21:37:12 GMT -5
I nodded softly. I wasn't going to let it come to that. I would try my best. The last thing I wanted was for him to have to kill me because I was being reckless.
{Later on...} I was losing too much blood. I couldn't stand or anything. I had to find someway to save myself quickly before it was too late. "Lucian..." I cried softly. I was afraid I had made it too soft for even his werewolf ears to hear. I needed help quickly.
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Post by Luna on Nov 17, 2010 7:12:25 GMT -5
I was a good distance away, and for once I didn't hear that Crystal was in trouble, but somehow I just knew she was. I shifted and ran a couple of miles, scenting the air, until the smell of blood - a lot of it - hit me. The fur rose up on my spine immediately and I tracked it to the source, shifting to my human form when I found her. "Princess?" I whispered. "Oh, dear God. What the hell happened to you?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 17, 2010 16:29:44 GMT -5
"I'm losing a lot of blood. I don't know if I can make it..." I said softly as tears rolled down my cheeks. The pain was too much to handle, and I had no idea how to possibly save myself. Thomas couldn't save me. I needed is blood. It would help heal me. Since he's not here though I need any blood I can get. Who's though I had no idea. "I need blood, but I... I don't have many options. The best thing would be to drink Thomas's blood, but obviously he's not here. I think it's just best if I die slowly. It'd save a lot of trouble." I said softly as the tears continued to fall.
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Post by Luna on Nov 17, 2010 16:33:51 GMT -5
I crossed my arms. "Much as I hate to say it, I think the solution is obvious here," I said mildly. "And it isn't for you to die."
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 17, 2010 16:41:58 GMT -5
I looked at him in pure confusion for a few moments. I was searching his eyes and thinking carefully, and I finally figured out what he was talking about. "Lucian... I'm not going to drink your blood..." I said softly shaking my head. He wasn't going to get me to. I had already had more of his blood than necessary. I wasn't going to waste more.
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