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Jan 15, 2011 0:16:52 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 15, 2011 0:16:52 GMT -5
I cried softly. "You know your daughter looks so much like you... I know that killed Lucian inside," I told her softly.
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Jan 15, 2011 9:43:21 GMT -5
Post by Luna on Jan 15, 2011 9:43:21 GMT -5
"I bet..." My eyes darkened with sadness. "He didn't take it well, did he?"
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Jan 15, 2011 14:53:13 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 15, 2011 14:53:13 GMT -5
I shook my head. "He watched you die in his arms... He wanted to stop it. He wanted to have done something. That's why he blamed himself," I said softly.
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Jan 15, 2011 15:40:05 GMT -5
Post by Luna on Jan 15, 2011 15:40:05 GMT -5
I rolled my eyes. "Stupid idiot..." I muttered, not without affection.
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Jan 16, 2011 4:02:56 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 16, 2011 4:02:56 GMT -5
"When I told him I blamed myself I said that I should have been the one that was dead. I said you didn't deserve to die. I had meant it. Of course he slapped me for saying such a thing but of course in my heart and mind it had felt true..." I said softly. "I can remember thinking as a kid, 'What if I pick up the knife off my table? Would I actually use it on myself? What if my parents found me with it? Would they literally beat me to death?' I never tried to kill myself as a kid, but that night when they had left I went up to my room and slit my wrists... I was only still a fifth grader..." I said softly as tears fell. "Alex, suspected it and saw the cuts. He was so pissed at me..." I said softly.
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Jan 16, 2011 10:04:55 GMT -5
Post by Luna on Jan 16, 2011 10:04:55 GMT -5
"And so am I," I said sharply, then softened. "Crystal, none of what's happened has ever been your fault. You know that."
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Jan 16, 2011 12:43:16 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 16, 2011 12:43:16 GMT -5
"It's just from it being beaten into me and yelled to me every day now that's hard to believe..." I said softly.
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Jan 16, 2011 13:13:30 GMT -5
Post by Luna on Jan 16, 2011 13:13:30 GMT -5
I sighed. "You can't believe what your parents told you, Crystal. They were practically psychopaths."
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Jan 16, 2011 13:40:38 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 16, 2011 13:40:38 GMT -5
"I know what I shouldn't do, but that's a lot different from what I can do because of how messed up my mind's been made," I said softly.
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Jan 16, 2011 17:29:15 GMT -5
Post by Luna on Jan 16, 2011 17:29:15 GMT -5
I shook my head quietly. "I should have been here these past years," I murmured, almost inaudibly.
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Jan 16, 2011 19:44:58 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 16, 2011 19:44:58 GMT -5
"Sorina, you couldn't help that..." I said softly.
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Jan 16, 2011 21:23:30 GMT -5
Post by Luna on Jan 16, 2011 21:23:30 GMT -5
"I know, I know. I died. Not my fault." I bit my lip, unconvinced.
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Jan 16, 2011 22:35:34 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 16, 2011 22:35:34 GMT -5
"Sorina..." I said softly. I sighed and lowered my head.
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Jan 16, 2011 22:37:09 GMT -5
Post by Luna on Jan 16, 2011 22:37:09 GMT -5
I sighed and hugged her gently. "Doesn't matter. I'm here now," I said softly.
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Jan 17, 2011 2:59:09 GMT -5
Post by jlcgurl on Jan 17, 2011 2:59:09 GMT -5
I actually felt happy again. I hugged her back tightly. I loved having her around. Tears fell fast. I just couldn't keep from crying at all. I was too happy.
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