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Post by Luna on Aug 6, 2010 16:34:45 GMT -5
"As if anyone of us are ever really fine, living here," a voice said dryly from the other direction. Sorina padded up soundlessly, casually twirling a strand of her hair around her finger. At some point it had darkened from blonde to gold - an effect of so much time spent in the dark, perhaps. Either that, or it went hand-in-hand with her other changes. She smirked when she saw her friend. "Hey, Cristie. Any recent vamp/wolf drama?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 6, 2010 17:05:19 GMT -5
"Yeah....Ebony sent some of her wolves here, and if I'm correct they were after who we just got back." I said looking down at Rose. I looked back up. My eyes fully took in Sorina's appearance and I shook my head. "Man am I going to have to get used to you being a vampire. I would've loved for you to be eventually a werewolf so that Lucian's not my only werewolf friend. I guess I can get used to it. I know it won't be hard for me." I said sighing and leaning against the wall.
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Post by Luna on Aug 6, 2010 17:23:38 GMT -5
The edge of a smirk curled onto Sorina's lips; she growled as she realized she was imitating Lucian for about the hundredth time, and decided to just give up and go with it. "I'm not exactly all fired up about being a vamp, anyway. I think Lucy there rubbed off on me." She smirked again, and sighed. "Okay, he definitely did. Now, tell me what's wrong and why I can see in your eyes that you're upset."
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 6, 2010 17:30:14 GMT -5
"Just everything....." I said trying to cover up the sadness. "I'm going back upstairs now. Just so you know though there is a guy up here. He's supposedly Rose's brother." I said turning and heading back up to my room.
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Post by Luna on Aug 6, 2010 17:38:31 GMT -5
"No, you're not," Sorina growled, padding after her with a very familiar stubborn light in her eyes. She spun her around and stared at her with a stubborn fire blazing in her bright green eyes. "Yeah, we've barely talked lately, but you're still one of my best friends. Don't just say 'everything' and walk away from me," she said. Her voice was firm, though not unkind.
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 6, 2010 17:57:08 GMT -5
"Well it's true. Everything is upsetting me. My best friend's a vampire now. How do you expect me to handle that?" I asked her as tears rushed to my eyes. "Nobody's safe here. Everything falls apart the second things start to work out. I've lost my memory, my friends, everything! It's too much for me to handle." I said as the tears started to fall.
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Post by Luna on Aug 6, 2010 18:06:48 GMT -5
Sorina softened and smiled gently at her friend, deftly tying her golden hair into a ponytail. "I know, everything is so screwed up here," she murmured. "Especially for you. You just have to kind of fight through it... and remember we're all here for you. Me, Dawn, Shadow, Thomas, Rose, Fate - heck, even Lucian, now that he's past his 'I-don't-give-a-crap' stage. And we're not going anywhere if we can help it." Her eyes narrowed. "And is it really that bad? Me being a vamp? Because personally, I kind of like the idea that I can actually, you know, defend myself now."
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 6, 2010 19:22:36 GMT -5
I smiled softly at her and wiped the tears. "No it's not all bad, but it's just not what would happen in a normal world. I just wish things didn't change so much and so fast. It's just not what I had planned. I was gonna have a normal life as much as I could, but that has been completely taken to where that will probably never possible." I sighed.
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Post by Luna on Aug 7, 2010 19:06:08 GMT -5
"I know," Sorina agreed softly, then the edges of her lips quirked up into the beginnings of a smirk. "Of course, what really sent things spinning out of control was Lucian showing up..." "I can hear you, Sunny," Lucian called out from upstairs, casually swinging himself around the banister. He smirked at her. "Hi, by the way." She rolled her eyes. "Hi, Lucian." He gave her one of his full-out smirks and came down the stairs - taking three at a time, of course. He was standing in front of her in a matter of moments. "What, no barbed, sarcastic comment for me today? You sick or something?" He grinned at her, and she narrowed her eyes. "Okay... you're an ego-maniacal mongrel. Happy?" It clearly lacked the usual vice and she knew from his expression that he could tell, but he just smirked wider. She sighed and turned back to Crystal. "How's Rose, by the way?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 7, 2010 19:54:41 GMT -5
"Still a little shaken up. A lot of things have gone on that are causing her to worry, but we're trying to get her through it." I said looking up at Lucian. "I just hope this crap will end. I want to at least be able to not have to worry at some point. Even if it doesn't last I want to be able to be like my old self again. I bet you've never really seen that side of me. I haven't been that way since about sixth grade. I was starting to get better, but with all that's gone on I'm afraid it'll be a while before I can really be myself." I said sighing.
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Post by Luna on Aug 7, 2010 19:58:24 GMT -5
Sorina laughed lightly, although there was really no genuine happiness behind it. Just sadness. "I didn't even have a real self for ten years," she stated calmly. "I was just... too deep in shock. And then Lucy showed up," she added, a little lighter, smirking at him. He raised one hand in a lazy gesture of acknowledgement. "So glad I could help," he said dryly, and more than a little sarcastically.
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 7, 2010 21:34:41 GMT -5
"Sorina...." I said lightly. I was trying to figure out if I should really ask her about this. I was sure this would be a hard subject to talk about for her. I was just deeply curious. "What exactly happened to you? I mean...like with your past. I know what you said that day, but Lucian and I both know that's not all. There's more to it." I finally said. My eyes were filled with compassion. I was pretty much begging her to tell us what had all went on.
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Post by Luna on Aug 7, 2010 21:44:29 GMT -5
Sorina froze, caught by surprise for a moment, then swallowed. "I don't think... I can't," she said slowly, twisting a long strand of hair between her fingers.
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 7, 2010 21:52:14 GMT -5
"Please Sorina. You have no idea how hard it was for me to tell you what happened to me. You have no idea how much harder I could've cried. There is pain still scarred in me. I know from experience that when you confess your problems it helps. It's like everyone says. It's a sense of relief. You need to let go of the problems. It'll be easier to forget them." I said as tears sparkled in my eyes.
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Post by Luna on Aug 7, 2010 22:15:13 GMT -5
Sorina shook her head mutely and looked away, her blonde hair - it was very long now - swirling to cover her face and her eyes. She stayed silent, staring blankly ahead and not moving - at least until Lucian dropped his hand on her shoulder gently. Then she jumped way more violently than necessary and looked up, her green eyes widening. "Tell us what happened, Sunny," he insisted quietly. She shook her head again. "I can't. It's too much... I just can't." He sighed and knelt down so that their gazes were level. His eyes were crystal blue and very intense, staring back at her so intently she couldn't even look away. "Sorina," he said. She blinked in vague surprise as he used her full name. "Come on. I killed my parents. It's not like I'm going to turn on you, and neither is Crystal." He snorted. "I mean, look who her soulmate is... not exactly a saint." Sorina raised one eyebrow, feeling somewhat close to normal for a minute. Hopefully Crystal would be over to overlook that random little comment. But the moment of normalcy faded as she looked into his eyes again, and she sighed, breaking the gaze to play with a ring on her middle finger. "I killed my dad," she mumbled, and then blinked, shocked at how it felt to say that out loud. She had never even imagined telling anyone, never even spoken the actual words aloud or even wrote them down. It felt good, having it off her chest, but it also felt like the walls she had spent ten careful years building around herself were beginning to crumble around her, and she didn't really know whether that was good or bad. Lucian's expression didn't waver, not even reflecting surprise, but there was a soft compassion there as he titled her chin up to look at her. "What happened?" She gave him a long look, took a deep, shuddering breath, and then closed her eyes, allowing herself to revisit the memories she hadn't even thought about for years. They were locked in a vault in her head, a place she never, ever went. Slowly, she swallowed, trying to make her throat feel a little less like it was padded with cotton, and started to speak. "My... my mother died when I was six..." she said softly. "I don't remember her well, or at all really, just the sense that she was there and then gone." Her eyes unfocused slightly, recalling the time period in vivid detail. "And after that, my dad kind of... well, lost it, I guess. He didn't even drink, he would just get nuts off of remembering her. And usually I could escape, you know, go down to the woods, although I was just a tiny little human girl and I would get hurt sometimes. I had a complete mask and wall around me within a year; no one saw through it, not my best friends or my teachers. I was a happy, healthy seven-year-old, and that's all they saw for the next three years." She paused, and felt tears pool up under her eyes for the first time since she could remember. Lucian took her hand gently and folded one of his over it in wordless comfort; she looked at him for a moment, then lowered her head and continued. "When I was ten, it... well, it reached a climax. He had completely lost it, and he attacked me the second I was inside. I couldn't run away. There was this... this enormous struggle, and I knew I was going to lose. I couldn't possibly win. I just tried to kick and bite the best I could, but he smashed glass in my stomach. I... I was desperate... and I saw the gun..." She cut off in a broken sob, stopping for several moments this time to regain her breath. "I - I was just ten. I was just going to try to scare him into not killing me, I didn't even think it was loaded... but like I said, he was just insane, and there was this big close-up struggle and it just... went off." She'd stopped with the broken sobbing now; the tears were just flowing freely and silently now. "When I woke up in the hospital a week later, they... told me that it was a suicide. I didn't tell them it wasn't. I didn't tell anyone anything... I just moved in with Dawn and her family and pretended everything was fine for the next six years after that." She gave up on talking completely and just melted down, opening the floodgates of ten years of pent-up sadness, frustration, and everything she wouldn't show. She sank quietly to her knees as she cried. Lucian let go of her hand after a minute and instead pulled her against him gently. She didn't even think to think about this logically or resist, just folded against him. He held her gently why she cried, whispering in her ear, "It's okay, Sunny, it's okay..."
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