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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 18:26:12 GMT -5
{Lucian} "And that should stop me... why?" I growled softly, my grip tightening.
{Sorina} "Crystal," I said, my voice quiet but stern. "Look at me. What's wrong with you, hmm?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 12, 2010 18:29:47 GMT -5
I listened to the voices in the room. "Lucian's about to kill Cameron, but Alli doesn't want him to. He'd listen to you... You should go help them. Don't worry about me..." I said softly.
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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 18:35:51 GMT -5
"Crystal..." I sighed softly. "Fine, but we will discuss this later." I rose to my feet and padded softly into the room. The instant I glanced at Lucian and saw the cold fury that blazed in his bright blue eyes, I knew she was right. Not much could stop him now... but I was not your typical girl, either. Not even your typical vampire girl. In what would be a suicidal move for almost anyone else, I stepped forward and grabbed his arm to distract him. "Lucian," I growled softly as his eyes snapped to mine. "Just let him go." He stared at me in silence for a long moment, so that I began to doubt even my abilities to make him listen, then he sighed and reluctantly released the vampire. "Happy?" he muttered to Alli.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 12, 2010 19:01:27 GMT -5
"Thank you, Sorina. Thank you for all you've done. I'm sorry for causing you trouble..." I said softly to her and Lucian. I felt bad for asking help and in the end not really needing much of it. Really all I did was cause pain for people that were kind enough to help me. I felt so ashamed. Tears fell and I walked out of the room. I sat next to Crystal. "You're confused aren't you?" she asked me softly. I looked at her, surprised. "I'm confused too. I have a soul mate. He loves me very much and will do anything for me. I just can't get over this one guy though, even though he already has someone he loves. Why do I have to be so obsessed? I used to have trouble even falling for a guy, but ever since I fell in love with him I couldn't give up. There was nothing I could do to stop myself. He doesn't see it either. I know he loves me, but just not in that way and it hurts me so much..." she said softly. Tears rolled down her cheeks. It was obvious that she was talking about Lucian. "I know I'm only fourteen and it's common for you to be confused with love but I didn't know it'd hurt this much... I love Bryce, but at times I get scared and Cameron comforts me. I don't know who the nice one really is. Even Bryce said that Cameron would eventually fall for me..." I said softly to her. Tears fell from both of our eyes. "Our lives are too complicated. They just continue to grow harder and we wonder if we should just give up, but even if we try to give up we know it's not best. So we continue to suffer through our lives, and try not to make anyone upset." she said softly. I nodded in agreement. "Our lives just suck..." I said softly.
{Crystal} I was trying to keep from letting Lucian hear our conversation, but he probably could anyways...
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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 19:20:46 GMT -5
{Lucian} I padded quietly out into the hallway and knelt beside Crystal, tilting up her chin to keep her gaze on mine. "I'd help you if I could, Princess," I said softly. "Honestly. But I can't. You understand?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 12, 2010 19:25:14 GMT -5
I looked up at him. I didn't want him to hear me. It hurt to know that he heard me say such awful things. "Lucian, I just..." I said breaking off because I knew it was better not to argue. I looked down, wanting to cry more. "Yes..." I said softly.
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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 21:01:11 GMT -5
I sighed and pulled her close to me, gently clearing her hair out of her eyes. "I do love you, you know. Not in the same way I love Sunny... but enough that I don't want anything to happen to you. Ever. You're like my little sibling, one that I actually like." I pulled back just a little to look deep into her eyes. "I am sorry about all that I've done to you. I am," I said quietly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 12, 2010 21:14:08 GMT -5
Lucian... I lay my head on his chest as tears flowed quickly. I hated that I said that. It wasn't like it wasn't true but I hated to have him know how I felt. "I'm sorry too... I love you so much, Lucian..." I cried.
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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 22:19:09 GMT -5
"You have nothing to be sorry for," I replied softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 12, 2010 22:28:52 GMT -5
"Yes I do. I hate what awful things I say to you. I know you love me and care for me and I'm so selfish because I want more. I'm so selfish! That's why I didn't actually care when you slapped me. I needed that. I had been selfish... Not in the way he was speaking of. Though I do love that you save me in times like those, but it's not intentional..." I said softly as tears continued to fall.
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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 22:34:18 GMT -5
I rolled my eyes. "Crystal... you are the exact and total opposite of selfish," I muttered.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 12, 2010 22:43:38 GMT -5
"That's not true! It's not true at all!" I yelled. "I'm incredibly selfish. I expect too much out of everyone. I don't realize how lucky I am. I take everyone for granted. I don't deserve the love I have, and it's even worse when I say the things I do. It's not right!" I continued to yell. Tears were flowing fast. "Maybe killing me is the best thing! Maybe Cameron should have shot me!" I yelled, my volume increasing.
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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 22:45:54 GMT -5
My eyes narrowed into slits. "Crystal, I swear to God I would slap you if you weren't already in too much pain," I snapped. "You're not selfish at all. If anyone is selfish here it's me."
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 12, 2010 22:49:17 GMT -5
"That's not true!" I cried. "You aren't selfish. You love me and I only make you feel worse by trying to ask more of you! I'm completely selfish! You aren't! That's why I should be killed! I ask too much of you, and take you for granted! Punish me and take my life!" I yelled.
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Post by Luna on Dec 12, 2010 22:53:12 GMT -5
"Crystal," I growled, tipping up her chin to keep her gaze on mine. "I want you to look me in the eyes, and I want you to listen very carefully. You are not selfish. I can't even count the amount of times you've wanted to sacrifice your life for someone else, risk your life for someone else. Hell, you're the one that got Sunny and I to go and help Alli in the first place. You don't deserve to die or be killed, and I'm not going to do that to you. You need to get these foolish thoughts out of your head. Understood?"
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