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Post by Luna on Dec 13, 2010 20:50:25 GMT -5
I stepped forward and grabbed her wrist, pulling back her arm by main force. "Princess," I growled. "I will break your wrist."
{Sorina} I stepped out of the room, brushing a stray wisp of hair out of my face. "What's going on... Crystal, what are you doing?" I muttered, somewhat exasperated.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 13, 2010 21:04:57 GMT -5
"Go ahead!" I yelled and even inside I actually meant this... Even if Cameron was controlling me. I didn't care anymore. Let him make me go through pain. I truly didn't care!
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Post by Luna on Dec 13, 2010 21:08:11 GMT -5
{Sorina} It clicked in my head instantly and I stepped forward, my eyes narrowing fiercely. "Don't, Lucian," I snapped. He gave me a long look and, seeming to read some of the thoughts flickering in my eyes, slowly lowered her arm, although he refused (wisely) to release her. I whirled to face Cameron and, before I could have time to think logically or realize I might be doing something suicidal, I slapped him across his face. Hard. "Get out of her head," I snarled. I didn't turn, but from behind me I heard Lucian whistle low and quietly. "Sunny... I believe I'm impressed."
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 13, 2010 21:28:06 GMT -5
Cameron grabbed Sorina's wrists and pulled her close. "If you could read her mind you would know that she wants this. I'm only doing her a favor. She wants relief from the life you've been forcing her to live. That's why she truly feels that you don't care Lucian, but you're too blind to see the obvious. I think you both should be punished for hurting this poor girl like this... Starting with you..." he said looking down at Sorina, smirking bigger. "Cameron, stop, please!" Alli and I screamed. Of course only Cameron would hear me because I had to say it through my thoughts. Cameron turned and looked at Alli. "Please, Cameron... You care about me right? You love me too right? Please don't..." she cried. He looked at Sorina for a moment or two and then released her. He helped me lift the knife again, trying to finish what we'd started. I pressed it hard against my chest and he walked off, letting me control myself again.
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Post by Luna on Dec 13, 2010 21:30:54 GMT -5
{Sorina} I groaned and rubbed my wrists slightly, my eyes remaining narrowed. "Well, that... sucked," I muttered under my breath.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 13, 2010 21:35:04 GMT -5
I continued to press it harder against my chest, the blood flow was increasing even more. I kept on as tears flowed. I couldn't stop myself. I didn't want to...
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Post by Luna on Dec 13, 2010 21:41:18 GMT -5
I whirled on my friend. "Crystal, would you stop!" I yelled. "Stop trying to kill yourself! It's not going to do anyone any good. You're not helping anyone by doing this... I know your life sucks, but newsflash - so do all of ours! I killed my father! Do you not think suicide ran through my head countless times?" To my slight surprise, I felt tears stinging at my eyes. I cried only on very, very rare occasions - but then, I was pretty sure this qualified. "There were so many times when I just wanted to end the perpetual pretense I was putting up, but did I? No. I stayed alive because I didn't want to give up. Because giving up would seem so pointless after everything I'd done to stay alive. You're not going to make our lives better if you do this, Crystal - you mean more to me and to Lucian than you could possibly know, and in your heart you know we do care." I wiped a couple of tears off my face and narrowed my eyes. "Just put it down and let go of this stupid obsession. Okay?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 13, 2010 21:57:08 GMT -5
"Do you not think I've tried? I've endured so much and I can't take it anymore! Alli can survive because she has two guys that love her truly, and take care of her! You can survive because you have more strength than I. I've never had that strength. My strength to forget broke when I laid eyes on him!" I said and looked at Lucian when I said, him. I then turned my focus back to Sorina. "I've tried it all. You know I've been through so many beatings because I wanted to stop this! You know that I've tried to believe that I can make it, but I can't! I honestly and truly can't. Stop me if you wish! Break my wrists. I don't care! Any pain you cause me now will only lead to me killing myself when you're not around. I tell you that one day i will happen. Neither of you will be around to help me make it through and I'll give up. I'll kill myself so that I don't have to endure any further pain! I'm not going to try to stop myself any longer! I'm going to go through with this!" I yelled. Tears stopped flowing because I was too furious to cry. My hand was shaking as I continued to press it harder into my chest.
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Post by Luna on Dec 13, 2010 22:05:43 GMT -5
"Crystal," I whispered softly as I stepped forward, grabbing her arm tightly. "Crystal, you are my very best friend. I think maybe you forget that sometimes. I think maybe you forget that I've lost too much to cope without you... I'm not as strong as you think I am - not as strong as I always pretend to be. It seems hard to believe, but I am fragile beneath surface. Any more pressure and I'm going to shatter." I felt tears streaming down my cheeks, though I couldn't remember beginning to seriously cry. I choked back on a sob as I kept my gaze on her face, slowly prying the knife from her grasp. "I know it's hard to keep living when something tears you apart all over again each and every day. More than anyone, I know. But you have to find your strength. You have to stay with me because... honestly and truly, I need you. I really do. I can't lose you, Crystal..." I whispered.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 13, 2010 22:29:10 GMT -5
"Sorina I just can't live like this... It's too hard. Far too hard for me to handle. Please don't make me live through this... Please.." I sobbed continuously. "I don't want to do this... This isn't how I want my life to end, but I feel like I have no other choice. Soina please don't make me live this life... Please... I can't go another day like this. Even if today ends well or if I'm beaten until I agree not to do it again something will go wrong like it did today and I'll try it again..." I said and paused to let out my sobs. "Lucian and Sorina if you truly love me you'll let me go... Please..." I continued to sob.
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Post by Luna on Dec 13, 2010 22:34:56 GMT -5
I shook my head. "As I believe Lucian said before, it isn't nearly that simple." I finally managed to get the knife completely out of her grip and tossed it lightly to him. He caught it by the hilt, as agile as always. "You're my best friend, remember? I don't just let you go." I had never completely stopped crying, but the tears that had begun to lighten up now fell heavily again. "Please, Crystal. I'm personally begging you. Please just tell me you'll stay alive for me... at least for as long as you can. I don't want to lose another person I love. Please..."
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 13, 2010 23:07:26 GMT -5
"That's just it Sorina...I've gone as long as I can. I can't live any longer... I've tried but I can't any more... If you want to try to knock sense into me then go ahead, but I've given up on myself... You see how much my own soul mate cares about me... I can count on my hand how many times he's saved me from something. He's never really been there for me. Lucian's the only guy who's ever fully been there for me! Do you see why him loving you hurts me so deeply? Do you understand how much it pains me? I will never get the love I want. I will never be fully happy again. If I look like I am it's an act to hide my deep sadness..." I sobbed continuously. I couldn't bare to stand any longer so I sank to the floor. I buried my face in my hands the tears continued to flow. I couldn't stop crying. I really wanted the knife back, but I was trying to at least save them from that right now. I would kill myself eventually though...
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Post by Luna on Dec 14, 2010 7:00:05 GMT -5
I knelt beside her and hugged her tightly, trying to bite back on some of my own hysterical sobs. "Crystal... I can't change who my soulmate is. Don't you think I've wanted to? I honestly would if I could, and not because I hate him, because I don't anymore. I want to help you... I always do... but despite some of the things I'm capable of, there's nothing I can do, and that drives me absolutely insane. I want to do something, I want to make you happy again - but that's not among my talents." I shook my head. "And then there are these times when you won't even talk to me... like you can't trust me or I won't understand... I understand a lot more than you know, Crystal. I still have my secrets, you know. I just... I wish you would just do this for me. Stay alive for me. Maybe I'm asking too much, but... please, Crystal."
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 14, 2010 7:47:27 GMT -5
"Sorina, I'd feel like the most selfish girl in the world if you did that... Sorina, Lucian makes you happy. He makes you truly happy, and that's why I envy you a lot because I wish that I had that. I also get my happiness from him and I hate that he gives it to you. I just couldn't take that from you, Sorina..." I cried as the sobs continues.
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Post by Luna on Dec 14, 2010 11:45:49 GMT -5
{Lucian} I narrowed my eyes and finally pushed myself off the wall to come and stand in front of her, folding my arms over my chest. "Crystal, would you shut up for a minute?" I growled. "I hate to be the one to inform you of this, but there's a reason your soulmate isn't around most of the time." I stared hard at her.
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