Post by jlcgurl on Aug 29, 2011 23:41:53 GMT -5
If life was simple and sweet I wouldn't be the way I am today... Life would not be a constant battle every day. Death would not be my only friend and I would not want it so badly... I would not wish for my life to end so quickly...
Envision yourself in a room with one closet that has two separate sides, two vanity mirrors, and one queen sized bed. All were the same color. The only way you could tell that two girls lived in this room was on one side of the bed there was a little stuffed Lamb, and on the wall on that side were some letters made of wood that spelled out "Venus." On the other side of the bed there was a stuffed dog and on the wall the letters spelled out "Roxanne." This was my and my sister's room that we shared. My sister and I were best friends so I did not mind it. We were identical twins, which made it even more okay.
In our closet we had all of the same outfits. We always matched. We liked looking the same. It was fun to us, and we loved it. Life was simple then...
We always looked out for each other. I stood up for her and she tried to keep me out of trouble. We would always end up with identical red hand prints on our backsides though and be sent to our room, but at night we would lay beside each other and talk all night. Life was great then, but one little thing changed my entire life... School.
We walked into the school, holding each other's hand tightly as we made our way to our class. We were wearing the same blue polo shirt and Kaki pants with sandals. We both had our bleach blonde hair pulled up into a ponytail. The only difference was that Venus had ghostly pale skin while I had a little more of a peach tone to mine. Our eyes were unique, being a brown with a deep red mixed in.
When we came into the classroom everyone turned to look at us and were stunned at how alike we looked. That day I thought I had made friends. I thought we had made friends... Day after day it became painfully obvious to me though that everyone only wanted to be friends with Venus. It didn't bother at first because Venus tried include in everything and no one said anything about it, but one day... One day a girl came up to me and called me "Venus's sister." That ended it all for me then.
When I got home I could not stop crying.
"Roxanne..." my sister said softly as she went over to me. "What's wrong...?" she asked as she tried to hug me.
"Go away!" I cried. She continued to try to hug me. "I said, 'Go away!'" I yelled, shoved her backwards and slapped her hard across the face. She began to tremble as I still cried from anger. Her body shook and as she burst into huge sobs she took off down the stairs.
{Venus}
I continued to cry as I headed for the front door. I had to get out of here... I continued to run and once I got into the living room my wrist grabbed. I turned quickly to see my mother standing there.
"Venus... What happened...?" she cried. I was sure she saw the handprint on my face. I simply shook my head in response. "Venus, what happened?" she asked again, in a firmer tone.
I only shook my head again. She took me upstairs. I knew Roxanne was probably going to think I told on her...
"Roxanne, did you hit your sister?" my mother asked.
"Yes..." she sobbed softly. She was grabbed and taken downstairs. I could hear her being spanked and I just cried even harder. I did not even have a clue as to what I had done wrong...
Later, I found that Roxanne had been put in time-out. As I passed by her she mouthed to me, "I hate you."
I never will understand why everything has become like this, but I know one thing for sure... I will try my hardest to be her best friend again!
Envision yourself in a room with one closet that has two separate sides, two vanity mirrors, and one queen sized bed. All were the same color. The only way you could tell that two girls lived in this room was on one side of the bed there was a little stuffed Lamb, and on the wall on that side were some letters made of wood that spelled out "Venus." On the other side of the bed there was a stuffed dog and on the wall the letters spelled out "Roxanne." This was my and my sister's room that we shared. My sister and I were best friends so I did not mind it. We were identical twins, which made it even more okay.
In our closet we had all of the same outfits. We always matched. We liked looking the same. It was fun to us, and we loved it. Life was simple then...
We always looked out for each other. I stood up for her and she tried to keep me out of trouble. We would always end up with identical red hand prints on our backsides though and be sent to our room, but at night we would lay beside each other and talk all night. Life was great then, but one little thing changed my entire life... School.
We walked into the school, holding each other's hand tightly as we made our way to our class. We were wearing the same blue polo shirt and Kaki pants with sandals. We both had our bleach blonde hair pulled up into a ponytail. The only difference was that Venus had ghostly pale skin while I had a little more of a peach tone to mine. Our eyes were unique, being a brown with a deep red mixed in.
When we came into the classroom everyone turned to look at us and were stunned at how alike we looked. That day I thought I had made friends. I thought we had made friends... Day after day it became painfully obvious to me though that everyone only wanted to be friends with Venus. It didn't bother at first because Venus tried include in everything and no one said anything about it, but one day... One day a girl came up to me and called me "Venus's sister." That ended it all for me then.
When I got home I could not stop crying.
"Roxanne..." my sister said softly as she went over to me. "What's wrong...?" she asked as she tried to hug me.
"Go away!" I cried. She continued to try to hug me. "I said, 'Go away!'" I yelled, shoved her backwards and slapped her hard across the face. She began to tremble as I still cried from anger. Her body shook and as she burst into huge sobs she took off down the stairs.
{Venus}
I continued to cry as I headed for the front door. I had to get out of here... I continued to run and once I got into the living room my wrist grabbed. I turned quickly to see my mother standing there.
"Venus... What happened...?" she cried. I was sure she saw the handprint on my face. I simply shook my head in response. "Venus, what happened?" she asked again, in a firmer tone.
I only shook my head again. She took me upstairs. I knew Roxanne was probably going to think I told on her...
"Roxanne, did you hit your sister?" my mother asked.
"Yes..." she sobbed softly. She was grabbed and taken downstairs. I could hear her being spanked and I just cried even harder. I did not even have a clue as to what I had done wrong...
Later, I found that Roxanne had been put in time-out. As I passed by her she mouthed to me, "I hate you."
I never will understand why everything has become like this, but I know one thing for sure... I will try my hardest to be her best friend again!
