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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 1:03:24 GMT -5
"Oh..." I rested my chin on her head, wanting to cry with her. "Oh my God..." I whispered, holding her almost painfully tight.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 1:08:33 GMT -5
I then continued on. "By the time I finally gave in to tell him I'm pretty sure she escaped so he didn't believe me. As punishment he beat me. Then of course he was violating me more until you got here..." I said as the sobs got worse. I looked at him. "What if I get pregnant? What then?" I asked as I continued to sob.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 1:12:45 GMT -5
My grip tightened, if possible, even more. I shook my head quietly. I couldn't stand that this had happened - first to Lydia, and now to her. They were both so incredibly broken, and it was all my fault. I never should have tried to escape my brother by starting a new life... I had known it could never work, and now it was unraveling rapidly. I never should have come here at all, bringing fear, depression, and trauma like a contagious disease. My eyes stung with tears that refused to fall. "I don't know, sweetheart," I said softly. "I really don't."
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 1:39:21 GMT -5
I sobbed into his chest, wishing the pain would go away. The pain I longed to vanish most though would be stuck with me for the rest of my life. I was glad I wasn't as suicidal as my mother. If I was then it would be so much worse, but because I had Michael to lean on I could from that. If I didn't then I would break so easily. I hated not having my clothes on still so I slipped them on and went to the bathroom. I washed off the blood and bandaged my wounds. I also washed my face to calm myself. I eventually began to break down again and sobbed on the bathroom floor.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 1:41:44 GMT -5
Once I knew she was taking much longer than she should, I rolled to my feet and padded to the bathroom door. Blinking to clear my vision past the tears still burning in my eyes, I knocked lightly on the door. "Are you okay, sweetheart?" I asked softly, mentally slapping myself for the stupidity of the question.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 1:47:14 GMT -5
I got off the floor and looked at him with my tear-stained face. My eyes concealing a little warmth to show that I hadn't given up all hope just yet. "No, but will I ever be now...?" I asked softly.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 1:49:30 GMT -5
"I suppose not..." I gently wiped a few stray tears off her face. "I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I should have stopped him." I should have avoided coming here at all, but I left that unsaid.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 1:57:23 GMT -5
"You didn't know... Don't blame yourself for this. I could've told you but I didn't. It wasn't your fault..." I said softly. I knew he didn't believe that at all. I sighed. "If you don't believe that, fine, but I'm in no mood to argue right now," I said, padding to my room.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 1:58:59 GMT -5
I followed her quietly. "Venus, my half-brother raped you. How can I not feel guilty for that?" I demanded softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 2:04:41 GMT -5
I sighed. "I'm really not in the mood to talk about this right now. Let's talk about it tomorrow..." I said as I laid down on my bed.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 2:06:38 GMT -5
I sighed. "Fine," I said softly. I lay beside her and pulled her head onto my chest. "Go to sleep," I murmured, gently brushing a few blonde strands of hair out of her face. "Try not to dream." I tipped up her chin and gazed deeply and seriously into her eyes. "I love you," I whispered.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 2:12:08 GMT -5
"I love you too, Michael, more than anything I do. I really don't know what I'd do without you." I said softly. I kissed his lips softly and then I rested my head on his chest. I wanted this warmth and protection to forever last. I didn't want it to leave me.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 2:13:51 GMT -5
I cringed and closed my eyes. I really hoped she didn't notice. "Go to sleep," I murmured gently.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 2:17:36 GMT -5
I nodded softly and drifted off to sleep easily. I didn't have trouble staying asleep now but I still squealed softly and cried throughout the night from the memories I continued to have.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 2:21:41 GMT -5
I cradled her close to me for comfort, almost as much mine as hers. I stroked her hair gently with one hand, holding back tears as I used the other to write on a piece of paper.
Dearest Venus, I hate that I have to do this. I've spent this entire night wondering if I even can - if I can hurt you any more than I already have. The only reason I can find the strength at all is because I know that staying will only hurt you more. The events of tonight will happen over, and over, and over, and all because my half-brother is after me. It's my life he wants to make hell. If I leave, he'll follow me, and you and Lydia will both be safe, if not entirely happy. It tears me apart to leave you, but it's for the best. You will move on eventually, I think... I hope you may even regain some of the light in your eyes. I love you. Never forget it. Michael
I carefully folded the paper twice into four even squares and set it on her bedside table. She would find it soon enough after she woke up. I gazed at Venus's face, trying to fix the image of her in a rare peaceful oblivion in my mind forever - something to clearly remember her by other than the tear-stained cheeks and deeply horrified gaze. I stroked a couple stray blonde strands of hair out of her perfect, fragile face and kissed her lips very gently, not enough to wake her. "I'm sorry, sweetheart," I murmured. "I love you." The stubborn tears finally forced their way from my eyes. And then I left. For the life of me, I couldn't remember ever having to do anything harder.
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