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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 2:40:42 GMT -5
When I woke up that morning I wasn't all too worried about Michael not being there, not at first at least. I mean he could have just left the room, or decided to leave for some reason. When I found the note though I fell to my knees quickly as tears fell. I had a hand over my mouth to try to calm myself, but I couldn't at all. All hope in me vanished right then. My sobs and breathing got loud and my sister and mother rushed into my room. "What's wrong?" they asked in unison. I just handed them the note. I rushed to the bathroom quickly as I threw up. Once I finished I walked into my room and looked at them. My mother hugged me tightly and tried to calm me. It didn't work much though so I got ready for school. When I got to school I found Lydia quickly. I pulled her aside where no one could hear us. "Hi," I said calmly. There was no emotion on my face now. I was trying too hard to hide it all.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 2:44:34 GMT -5
I sighed. "Hey," I said softly, not looking in her eyes.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 2:50:29 GMT -5
"What happened last night? You know your soul mate raped me for being loyal to you and since I finally had no other choice I told him where I thought you were and since he didn't believe me he beat me. Then to make it even better I woke up this morning finding out my soul mate didn't want to hurt me anymore so he left. Now I don't know what to do anymore..." I said as I couldn't make it look like I was mad at her anymore as I broke down into sobs. I couldn't stop crying. I was so upset and nothing could make me any better now.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 2:53:54 GMT -5
My eyes grew wide. "Oh my God..." I whispered, hugging her tightly in a mostly vain effort to calm her down. "I'm sorry..." I whispered.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 3:06:01 GMT -5
I hugged her tighter as the tears streamed down my face. "Why do our lives have to be like this? Why can't we be happy teenagers? It sucks so much to live like this..." I said as I pulled back and wiped away the tears.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 3:08:46 GMT -5
I sighed softly. "Trust me, I know. My soulmate raped me, remember?" I whispered.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 3:30:37 GMT -5
"I know..." I said softly. "Well I'm going to uh... go to class now, okay? I'll see you around..." I said as I turned quickly and walked down the halls. I looked like an insecure girl with my arms crossed as I rubbed my arms to try to calm myself and kept my eyes lowered to avoid everyone's gazes. It was too hard to pretend I was okay. I knew I wasn't.
{A few days later...} I was sitting on my bed with my knees pulled up to my chest. Tears were flowing as I listened to music to try to calm myself. I had done this ever since he left. I did nothing more. I then eyed the knife I had placed on my dresser. You had to have one for protection. I picked it up and studied it for a moment. I took it and slit one of my wrist's. I then pulled the knife up to my chest and pressed it slowly into my skin. I pressed it harder in as the blood began to trickle slowly. The blood flow increased as I continued to press it harder and harder into my chest. My sister opened the door. Her eyes widened as she walked over to me and grabbed my arm. "Venus, let go of the knife now," she demanded. I continued on so she left the room.
{Roxanne} I was frustrated with her so I quickly called Lydia. "Hey Lydia? I'm having a little bit of a problem with Venus right now... Could you come over?" I asked softly.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 3:33:41 GMT -5
"What kind of problem?" I asked slowly, already preparing to leave. I threw on a pair of shoes and my coat - it was very cold here - and began the fast walk through town to where I knew their house to be. It really wasn't far from mine.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 3:35:55 GMT -5
"Uh... well she's trying trying to kill herself..." I muttered softly, almost as if it wasn't a big surprise.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 3:37:36 GMT -5
"Oh, God..." I sighed. "I'm here," I muttered, flipping the phone shut. I made it into her room moments later. "Venus... put it down," I said softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 3:42:28 GMT -5
{Venus} I simply just glared at her as I continued to press the knife deeper and deeper into my skin. The blood flow was really bad now. I wouldn't stop though. I couldn't. I had to keep on because I felt it was the only way.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 3:43:27 GMT -5
I sighed and glanced towards Roxanne. "Can you hold her down?" I asked calmly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 3:45:28 GMT -5
She nodded softly. She got on the other side of me and pinned down my shoulder's to keep me from struggling. I continued to press harder, as if they were doing nothing to me.
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Post by Luna on Dec 29, 2010 3:47:55 GMT -5
I pinned her down and managed, with supreme effort, to pry the knife from her grasp. I threw it halfway across the room and folded my arms crossly. "What was that about?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Dec 29, 2010 3:50:34 GMT -5
"I'm sick of living!" I cried. "I can't take living anymore. I once had something to live for but now that that's gone I don't care anymore..." I said as I continued to sob.
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