Crystal's House

[jlcgurl]

Even being a werewolf life at home is much worse. That's why I like being out a lot. I'm hardly ever home except to sleep. On the weekends I'm out all day. I find any kind of excuse to not be home. Why is this? When I go home no one's ever home it's always just me. It's been that way since I was five. Before that my parents had a nanny watch over me. I've never really seen my parents. They left me here with money, food, a bed, anything I would need. Ya, it seems like every kid's dream. No parents! Well in fact it's lonely and sad. I have no one to help me. I only have my friends to help me. I have to rely on myself most of the time. It's not fair! I wasn't even told that I was a werewolf. I had to figure that out on my own. I call my parents sometimes, but normally they don't really care or even answer. I just send cards on holidays or birthdays. I'm glad that at least we're very wealthy so I have a lot. I just still am longing to be loved. This is why I would rarely belive that it exists if I hadn't already felt it once. I will never feel the same longing and love towards him. He knows almost everything about me, but he will never know this. My life totally sucks!!

[jlcgurl]

I walked into my house, and took a shower warming my cold human body. I got out and went to my room. I found my, decent sized, laptop and pulled up a document in my diary folder.
Dear Diary,
I think I'm getting a closer relationship with Lucian. Just friends though, but I'm fine with that. It seems that's all we are meant to be anyways. I hope that soon I will find the one that deeply loves and cares about me. I also hope to figure out my goal or reason in life. "Who will love me?", "Why am I here", "What is my purpose?" These questions go through my mind constantly and I have no way to answer. Sorina now knows and understands me more than ever. She has already found her love I suppose though she may not know it. It interests me how both of these intelligent people can be so blind when it comes to love or anything other people can see so clearly. Amenia is such a crazy place. Ha! What's also wierd is that even as something that people think is fiction I think it's crazy. That just shows you messed up this place is. I'm begining to question everything around me like it's some kind of dream.
Sincerely,
Crystal
P.S. Never move to Amenia!!!

[jlcgurl]

I walked to my bed. My tears falling again visioning everything that happend today. I shook my head constantly trying to get them out. "Why does everything have to go so wrong?", I asked myself starting to sob. Then, I thought one thing that had never popped inside. It shocked me at first. It must have come from a dark rage inside that I never cared to think to until now. I mean I'm not insane or emo, but this sentence is starting to make sense to me the more I think about it. "Is it even worth living?", was the thought. I mean it's true! Who would miss me? Sorina will be fine with Dawn, Lucian, and Shadow by her side. Sorina is the only true person that cares or at least matters. I could save her. I shook my head why did this even pop up. I quickly fell asleep with this thought pondering through my mind.

[jlcgurl]

Continuing from {Italian Subs and Salads}- Me and Kierlan walked out of the school hand in hand. We started to run trying to get to my house before my sister did. I told him about her being extremely shy and had a bad past with vampires. He of course understood and agreed to stay a safe distance away so that she won't be afraid. We walked into the house I went upstairs quickly to put my stuff away and came downstairs to him looking at the old pictures of me. I blushed embarrassed by the fact that he found it. Inside was a CD of me playing the piano and singing. He put it in the CD player and the first song was Alex's favorite. It made me tear up a little, but I tried to control myself. I didn't want to worry him or make him feel sorry for some stupid little thing. I smiled and walked over to him listening to it. "My parents won't be here tonight." I said hurting a little inside and some of that was reflecting in my eyes. I didn't want it to, but it was hard to cover up. It was something I lived with and hard to lie about.

[Luna]

Kierlan smirked, his blue eyes twinkling. "As I recall, they hardly ever are."

[jlcgurl]

"They never are, actually. Not since I was born." I said honestly as the words pulled a little relief on my heart, but then also hurting another part sending tears to my eyes. "I'm sorry, I don't mean to cry so easily. It's hard to control my emotions since nobody ever told me how. I'd always been able to until Lucian showed up. He caused a lot of drama in my life. Oh and since we're on Lucian. Rose isn't actually my sister. You know that vampire girl I told you about? Well, she had Rose held captive for her own personal uses. We took her back with us while the vampire was unconsious so I adopted her. You now know my deepest secrets." I said cofessing, but there was a secret I was keeping inside. I could hide it inside and he wouldn't figure it out. I hoped he wouldn't think about questioning me.

[Luna]

Kierlan stared back at her for a moment, an unreadable expression in his deep blue eyes; then he smiled, and they lit up again, humorous and maybe a bit mischievous. They seemed to sparkle a little, absorbing the light and reflecting it back at her as he asked casually, "So what do you usually do around here?"

[jlcgurl]

"I barely stay here. If I am here I play my piano, write, or sing. I try to stay away from my house as much as I can because I hate being alone, but now that I have Rose I'll need to fix that." I sighed, and I walked over to the couch and sat down. "When I was little I was always carefree. I ran a lot, and played sports. Now I've made the image to where if you even saw me near dirt you'd think the world was ending. I can't believe how preppy and girly I've turned out. I would never imagine me being like this. I thought I was human for eleven years. It sucks...." I laughed, and looked at him with my normal lightness. It was an expression of happy teen. An expression I haven't showed in a while. I still didn't act like myself though, but something about this moment felt right.

[Luna]

He offered her a crooked half-smile and sat down next to her on the couch, smirking lightly as he twirled a ring around his finger. A handy little sun-protection thing. "I think we all turn out differently than we expect," he said lightly, shrugging a little. He looked up and grinned at her, adding casually, "You think I expected to end up being changed into a vampire?"

[jlcgurl]

"What's your story?" I asked twirling a strand of hair around my finger. I was tired of talking about my life, and was curious about his. I was normally able to figure out a guy from looking into his eyes. It's always been a thing of mine. I would never be able to fully see though his or Lucian's. It's something about their deep blue eyes that makes it hard for me to read them. I was a sucker for blue eyes though. I loved the way they shined on them. It gave them the mystery I was looking for.

[Luna]

"Ah... me?" He smirked and leaned back, his eyes still twinkling at her. He twirled his sun protection ring on his finger idly. "There's really not all that much to me." He inclined his head at her. "You are far more interesting."

[jlcgurl]

"Oh really...." I said raising my eyebrows. I had never thought of myself as interesting. "Yeah... I've never met my parents, am incredibly popular, but none of them know what I'm really like, I sing and write when I'm bored, I get into trouble just from hanging out with a guy.... Yeah I'm far more interesting." I said rolling my eyes. "My life is a complete hell. How is that interesting?" I asked shaking my head. He was making me feel different. I couldn't believe I was actually laughing. It was a girly laugh I'd developed. I absolutely hated it for some odd reason. It gave off the sense that I was stuck up just like my appearance did.

[Luna]

He smiled brightly. "Well, maybe you are what interests me, wolf girl," he said, a light, teasing note in his voice. "Not your life."

[jlcgurl]

"I highly doubt that. I was harder to figure out before. Maybe a little easier than it is to try to figure out you or Lucian. Now I'm just a messed up teenager with no path in front of her." I said still laughing. It was hard to believe that I could be laughing over this. I would always cry when I tried thinking about my life, or at least would cover it up with a plain look that made me seem normal. Me actually laughing over it though.....It's hard to believe such a thing is possible. "You seem far more interesting. I would have to admit I'd rather be a vampire than a werewolf. I think it'd suit me better." I admitted.

[Luna]

He shrugged, although he was still wearing that peculiar expression somewhere between a crooked half-smile and a smirk. "I don't know, the whole cold undead thing really wouldn't suit you," he said casually. "Too warm a personality."