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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 30, 2010 19:15:38 GMT -5
I finally lost it right then. A few tears fell silently and I looked down, so no one would see me cry. I hated when people were hurt because of me, but it hurt when people didn't care. I will never be satisfied. I'm greedy and selfish. Why am i like this? I wish someone could explain myself to me. I feel alone inside. I feel that no one will ever understand the pain I have inside. "Excuse me..." I whispered softly and eyed Sorina carefully hoping she would catch that I needed to talk to her. I walked into the girls bathroom and made sure we would be the only ones in there.
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Post by Luna on Aug 30, 2010 19:17:51 GMT -5
Sorina's eyes flashed in understanding, and she gave a small, almost imperceptible nod and padded lightly after her. The second they were alone, she crossed her arms and raised her eyebrows in an expression now typical for her. "Crystal, what's wrong? You know he deserved that, and more."
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Post by jlcgurl on Aug 30, 2010 20:07:24 GMT -5
"I know. I don't understand. That's my problem. I don't know who I am. I feel lost inside, like there's a part of me that's missing aside from the memory loss. I'm trying to figure myself out. It's so hard. I don't know what to think or do. I feel I expect too much from everyone. I feel that I want love, but the love I get never sweeps away the pain inside. It will never go away. How do I handle my life? What should I do?" I cried and barried my face in my hands. "I'm sorry. I don't mean to cry this much. I hate that I do this..." I said softly to her.
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Post by Luna on Aug 30, 2010 20:16:03 GMT -5
"Hmm... you're kind of entitled to it." Sorina's voice was dry, but her eyes were gentle. She hugged her friend tightly. "Our lives suck. All of them, yours more than most. It just seems to automatically come with living in this... place."
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Post by lena12000 on Aug 31, 2010 16:33:58 GMT -5
{Thomas} The uneasyness grew as I saw Matt AND Davena walking side by side. "Oh God..." I muttered, then bite my lip. Davena winked and smiled as she walked by. I turned my face away and then I saw Marcus being circled by a large group of giggly girls. I saw Fate standing to the side looking a little confused and unfocused. "Crystal, I'm proud of you and you know I couldn't use you." I snuggled her close to my chest and kissed her.
{Fate} My head was spinning. I felt faint and I had to get to class. I began to run and I didn't care if I looked way too fast. I ran itno a bathroom stall and nearly slipped. I felt like my throat was going to burst into flames. I felt tears wash down my face. I needed blood....and I needed it now.
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Post by jlcgurl on Sept 1, 2010 19:20:36 GMT -5
"Fate? Are you okay?" I asked her softly and slowly. I ignored all my problems, and put my full focus on her's.
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Post by lena12000 on Sept 1, 2010 19:56:49 GMT -5
{Fate} Tears streaming down my face I looked up at her. My fangs were biting into my bottom lip and my eyes were stone cold. I nodded. I wasn't fine, but I didn't want her to have another thing on her plate. "Just find out about Matt and Davena are up to, ok?" I stood up and wiped my knees off. I licked my bottom lip and smiled. "I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. Have a great day. I gotta get to class." I walked past her, keeping my eyes down and nearly ran to my class. I sank into my seat just as soon as the bell rang and the teacher looked up. As the lesson continued I heard my friends whispering, so I turned around to get in on what they were gushing about. As soon as I heard I wirled back around and tried to block them out, but it was too loud. "Omg..He was sooo Hawt...", "Fate's cousin....", "Marcus....", "I totally love him...", "Maybe Fate could...". I pressed a hand to my ears and took deep breaths.
{Thomas} "I'll cya after class, Cristie!" I hugged her close and whispered softly in her: "Please don't get kidnapped today. I need you. Plus, Don't worry about Fate she has male vampire issues." I rolled my eyes and kissed her softly. "Have a good class."
{After Class}
{Fate} "Fate, Wait!" Someone yelled. I whirled around and nearly fell over. "What?" I demanded my best friend. "He's really cute and I wanted to know if you'd set us up? Pretty please, Bestie?" She begged. I kept my face expressionless. "He's taken." I replied, flatly. Her face fell. "Really? Dang." Then Marcus was standing beside me. "Hello, Dear Girl." He spoke to my best friend in a purr that made me want to slap his face. "H..Hi." Her face turned red. I growled in disgust. "Something wrong, CUZ?" He put an emphasis on Cuz... "No. Actually I was thinking about catching a ride with Matt." His face tightened the tiniest bit and he spoke through clenched teeth. "Thomas said you were to stay away." I smirked. "And is that suppose to scare me?" I asked, innocently. "It should. And you aren't." I clenched my teeth. "Try me." I spoke coldly. "Um...I gotta go..." My friend slinked away, leaving me to face Marcus. "Let's just go home. I'm finished arguing with you." I turned on my heel and walked away. I didn't look back.
{Thomas} I stood calmly by Crystal's locker. "How was class?" I asked her, handing her a vanilla ice-cream cone. I had ditched the last class to pick up my new protective braclette and had stopped and got ice-cream. "Don't ask." I told her smiling at her confused face.
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Post by jlcgurl on Sept 2, 2010 17:28:37 GMT -5
"Can we go to my house? I wanna go there. I have only seen it in one memory of mine. At least I think it was mine." I said, sending a pleading look through my hazel eyes.
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Post by Angel on Sept 5, 2010 10:36:47 GMT -5
Shadow just sat there thinking of all the days just sitting with Dawn, "Hey crystal, what's up doll?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Sept 5, 2010 10:50:15 GMT -5
I turned quickly and looked at Shadow. A rage had heated up inside from hearing him call me Doll. I grabbed the front of his shirt and pulled him in front of my face. "Please, don't EVER call me that again. Okay?" I growled, trying to control myself. I quickly let go of him and stepped back. I was losing my mind. Why do I keep losing my temper so easily? I feel like a....a...MONSTER! Why am I like this? Are my parents psychopaths? Probably...
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Post by Angel on Sept 5, 2010 10:55:57 GMT -5
Shadow just stood there. mumbling under his breath," What peed in your cornflakes sweetie. Then louder he said, S'kay. My fault." Then he sat down.
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Post by Luna on Sept 5, 2010 10:58:42 GMT -5
Sorina sat beside him, her green eyes even more serious than trouble. "She got kidnapped by a sadistic, telepathic vampire awhile ago... he basically tormented her. And he called her baby-doll," she explained, too softly for the normal humans milling around to hear.
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Post by jlcgurl on Sept 5, 2010 11:00:15 GMT -5
"I'm sorry. I've been having a hectic day. You're not the only one I've acted this way towards. I slapped Lucian earlier...." I said sitting down next to them. I layed my face in my hands. "I'm losing my mind!! What the hell is wrong with me?" I cried. I didn't care if anyone asked questions. Let them stare. I don't care at all.
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Post by Luna on Sept 5, 2010 11:01:13 GMT -5
Sorina sighed. "First of all, Lucian deserved that. He's been deserving it for a long time. And second of all, Crystal, no one can really blame you for being so wired. Not with all that's happened to you."
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Post by Angel on Sept 5, 2010 11:01:55 GMT -5
"I see, Well then sorry Crystal.It's not your fault. And you're just under alota stress, I understand that. Here lets go to the mall and I'll buy us all a smoothie." Dawn walked up slowly, not trying to tip off anyone that she was a new vampire. "Hello my friends. What's this about the mall and free smoothies? Sorina wanna go? "
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