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Post by Luna on Oct 27, 2010 18:05:22 GMT -5
I pulled my arm back and studied her face carefully. She was shaken up and very weak, but she definitely had enough blood in her to keep her alive. Relief swept through me, and I lowered my head slightly, then said softly in response to her question, "Well, I saved you, Princess. Did you think I wouldn't? I've lost enough today," I said softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 27, 2010 21:41:04 GMT -5
"Well I was hoping you wouldn't...." I whispered softly. It was now taking pretty much all of my strength to speak. It meant a lot that he cared enough. I felt a lot of love from him, and I didn't want that to end. I imagined how hurt he really would be if I left him, especially right now. I knew it would hurt him far more than he could really bare. He would completely lose it if I was out of his life as well. I had to keep him grounded... I had to do it for Sorina....
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Post by Luna on Oct 27, 2010 21:50:34 GMT -5
I stared at her in silence for a moment, and then I abruptly grabbed her arm, pulled her up, and slapped her hard across the face. "And by the way, Princess," I growled, "Do not ever do that to me again. Okay?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 28, 2010 6:07:36 GMT -5
My cheek stung terribly, way worse than normal. I looked away from him as the tears started to quickly fall. "I'm sorry..." I whispered softly. I tried to control myself but it was hard. I quickly layed my head on his chest, sobbing uncontrollably.
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Post by Luna on Oct 28, 2010 6:12:49 GMT -5
I sighed softly and wrapped my arms around her, holding her close to me. I didn't try to speak, because once more, there was nothing I could say that wouldn't be an outright lie. I stroked her hair rhythmically, the motion comforting me just as much as her.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 28, 2010 6:20:50 GMT -5
I continued to cry for a while, but eventually I stopped. I pulled back and looked into his eyes. I had to quickly look down, and bite my lip, to keep the urge that was rushing through me back.
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Post by Luna on Oct 28, 2010 10:52:07 GMT -5
I shifted a little, then tilted her chin up slightly, keeping our gazes locked. "Are you going to be okay, Princess?" I asked softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 28, 2010 16:25:08 GMT -5
"I don't know...." I whispered softly, staring into his beautiful deep blue eyes. They have gone through so many different changes. Remembering back to when I first met him his eyes were so dark and empty. I couldn't see very far deep. They were way too unreadable. I knew that inside, somewhere hidden, there was a light. A light in which he would not show. It was a light in which held his love for me and Sorina. Of course Sorina's had always been there. Ever since he'd been born he's had a connection to her heart, even if he never had realized it or believed it until he had no other choice to because of all that proved it. How long he's loved me I will probably never know. I wish I could read his heart and mind. Sorina had that advantage. I wish I at least knew what it was like to feel his lips mold around mine. I want to feel a passionate kiss. I had only kissed him once. Of course then he got mad at me. I couldn't afford that to happen, but I was really curious if he would. I didn't want to lose him because I did something stupid. I also couldn't lose Thomas. I couldn't lose anyone anymore. If I did I'll be right back to this, wanting to kill myself, and finding any possible way to let it happen. I just really wanted to kiss him... Tears fell as I thought about this. I looked away from him. I didn't want to show him what I longed to do. I hoped he wouldn't question why I was so upset. I really didn't want to admit to him that still in my heart I wasn't over him.
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Post by Luna on Oct 28, 2010 17:01:43 GMT -5
"Crystal," I said softly, turning her head to face me again. My bright blue eyes stayed straight on her. "Can you tell me, honestly, that you're not going to try to kill yourself again?" I asked, almost inaudibly. I knew well enough that she wouldn't be able to look straight into my eyes and lie to me, and if she somehow did, I'd be able to tell.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 28, 2010 17:30:52 GMT -5
I looked into his eyes for a moment, thinking deeply about it. After a moment I closed my eyes and shook my head. "Not without breaking my promise again.... I can't promise anymore, but I'll try my best to keep from it. I know it's wrong. I know that deep in my heart. It's just that at certain times like today I'll ignore the right thing and do what I want most..." I said softly. I wanted to end all of those thoughts and live a better life. I needed to get better at controlling myself. My tears continued to fall as the urge was still there and many thoughts continued to soar through. "Please don't let him notice... Please don't let him notice..." I thought as I hid my face yet again to hide my emotions.
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Post by Luna on Oct 28, 2010 17:41:07 GMT -5
My eyes narrowed and I pulled her closer, scanning her face carefully. "What are you hiding, Crystal?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 28, 2010 17:47:29 GMT -5
I bit my lip. I knew I wouldn't be able to tell him what really was bugging me, but I could at least tell him something. "You know how we said that when we got the chance to, we'd leave from this place... Well Thomas and I had been talking and we're leaving soon. I was neglecting to tell you and Sorina until I thought it was best, but seeing as how everything's going it'd be best for you to all ready know..." I said softly, not looking in his eyes. I had no idea how he'd react. I just hoped he wouldn't get mad or upset... If he was he probably wouldn't even show it anyways....
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Post by Luna on Oct 29, 2010 16:11:59 GMT -5
I blinked, then slowly pulled away from her and rose to my feet. "You're leaving?" I asked softly, my voice carefully neutral.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 29, 2010 23:19:00 GMT -5
I kept my face down. I couldn't stand to look into his eyes. It would hurt me far more than it already did just to hear his voice. "I'm sorry Lucian... I regret this, but it is what's best. I know I need more peace before I can even find my emotions and feelings. I just need to relax... You know I need this. I just hate to think that this could cause you more pain than anything... I also hate to imagine the pain I'll go through.." I said and bit my lip. The last part escaped before I could even stop it. I avoided it earlier. I had to keep my urge hidden. I couldn't let him find it out...
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Post by Luna on Oct 29, 2010 23:38:01 GMT -5
I laughed softly, without real amusement. "It's okay, Crystal," I said softly. "You'd be stupid to want to stay here if you had a possibility of escape." I looked up slightly, at some undefined point just above her head. "Of course... I have no reason to leave here. Nothing lies beyond this city for me, and it's not going to get better anywhere I go, so I might as well stay."
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