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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 14:08:54 GMT -5
I punched him harder as I cried and screamed. "Just go! I don't need you!" I cried.
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 14:10:06 GMT -5
I grabbed her wrists with both hands. "Crystal Lynn Wright! Calm down!" I shouted, trying to break through to her.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 14:40:27 GMT -5
I was shaking and sobbing. Hearing him call me that made me snap. I automatically recalled my dad calling me that. From this I lost all sanity in me and convinced myself that Lucian was my father. "Why don't you love me? I've tried so hard for you to have no reason not to. I learned six different languages! I've tried to be a good girl and not give you any reason not to love me. I've tried to stay out of trouble. I make straight A's! Next year I might even skip up a grade! Why don't you love me? Why don't you love me?!" I screamed as I sobbed even harder. Tears were flowing so fast. I was shaking uncontrollably. My whole body felt numb and my heart was racing. I could barely breathe now...
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 15:03:05 GMT -5
"Crystal! Princess!" I shook her roughly. "Look at me. I'm not your father."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 15:08:53 GMT -5
I could barely understand what he was telling me. I continued to sob really hard. "Daddy, just pleas forgive me. I promise I'll be a good girl... I won't screw up anymore... I promise... Please love me!" I cried, my mind still in a haze.
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 15:09:55 GMT -5
"Crystal!" I shouted. "Crystal, look at me!"
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 16:09:16 GMT -5
I continued to cry. I was making distressed whimpering noises as I still fought with him. I continued to yell at him as my sobs never ceased. I could understand that he was Lucian now but I was still very upset and most of that was making my continue to believe that he was my father.
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 16:12:57 GMT -5
"Princess." I grabbed her arms tightly to hold her still. "Look at me. Look into my eyes. I'm not your father, and I won't hurt you."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 16:42:41 GMT -5
My eyes widened. I looked up into his eyes. My eyes widened even further. Tears flowed out even quicker. "I'm so sorry, Lucian..." I sobbed hard into his chest. "I-I wasn't thinking c-clearly..." I cried as my heart rate accelerated even more.
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 16:45:06 GMT -5
"Shh. It's okay. You're fine." I pressed my lips to her forehead and held her tightly, stroking her hair gently.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 17:02:35 GMT -5
"I'm really so sorry..." I cried even harder. I hated to act like this. I just couldn't take it. It was all too depressing for me. I just wanted this all to end.
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 17:03:55 GMT -5
"Don't worry about it, principessa. You're fine," I said softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 17:31:44 GMT -5
I shook my head. "No I'm not. Don't say that... I'm not at all..." I cried.
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 17:32:53 GMT -5
I sighed. "Princess..." I murmured softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 17:48:11 GMT -5
"I'm not," I snapped. "My life has become nothing but a waste, and it's all my fault! If I had been a better child to my parents then my life would never have happened!" I cried.
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