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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 11, 2011 7:39:08 GMT -5
It's only been six years... It feels like it's been a lifetime since my parents left me... No one would know how hurt I am today. The past years I could hide it very well. I intend on it being the same way this year. I dressed normally. I used makeup to cover up where I had been crying. I walked slowly into school. I smiled and waved at passing friends, trying to make today as normal as possible. "Hey," I said to Sorina and Lucian, still smiling brightly as always.
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Post by Luna on Feb 11, 2011 15:41:47 GMT -5
{Sorina}"Hey, Crystal," I said softly, grinning with rare brightness.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 11, 2011 15:57:17 GMT -5
I was glad she couldn't see the sadness in my eyes. I had been worried she'd see through me easily. "How are you?" I asked them both.
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Post by Luna on Feb 11, 2011 16:14:28 GMT -5
{Lucian} I rolled my eyes. "Bored. Annoyed. But what else is new?" I smirked.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 11, 2011 16:22:43 GMT -5
"I'm actually feeling perfectly fine today," I lied. I kept smiling at them brightly, trying to throw off all the sadness in my eyes.
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Post by Luna on Feb 11, 2011 22:25:27 GMT -5
{Sorina} I rolled my eyes. "Your expression says otherwise," I muttered.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 11, 2011 22:48:27 GMT -5
Oh crap... I knew this had to be coming. "What are you talking about...? I'm perfectly fine," I said softly. I bit my lip. I hated this so much...
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Post by Luna on Feb 11, 2011 22:55:43 GMT -5
I rolled my eyes. "Lying. No surprise. I know you're not fine, Crystal."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 11, 2011 22:58:11 GMT -5
"Yes I am! I'm perfectly fine. I've never been more fine in my life! Why can't you just believe that?" I cried and tears streamed quickly down my cheeks. I buried my face in my hands. I was sobbing harder than I ever had in my whole life. I knew at one point I'd eventually break but why now? Why in front of them? I fell to my knees as I sobbed even harder. I couldn't stop crying at all.
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Post by Luna on Feb 11, 2011 22:59:55 GMT -5
"Oh my God, Crystal..." I knelt beside her and hugged her as tightly as I could, resting my chin on her shoulder. "What's wrong?" I asked softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 11, 2011 23:17:37 GMT -5
I just continued to cry. I couldn't speak at all. It hurt me all too much inside. It hurt so much to even breathe... I just wanted to die but I had to keep that from me. I wouldn't allow myself to do that. I finally stood up quickly and ran to the bathroom, dealing with my depression the way I always ended up having to. I rinsed out my mouth and washed off my face. When I finished I walked back over to them. I lowered my head. "The reason I'm really upset today is because... Six years ago on this exact day was the day that my parents left.... Three years after that, still on the same day, was when I lost my best friend..." I sobbed hard into my hands. I hated this far too much. Memories and everything just continued to flow through my mind. I couldn't stop crying at all....
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Post by Luna on Feb 11, 2011 23:19:19 GMT -5
"God, Crystal... come here..." Without giving her a chance to resist, I hugged her tightly. "It'll all be okay. It's in the past."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 11, 2011 23:25:19 GMT -5
"But all I remember is that... Right now all that's going through my mind are those two days... I can't forget them..." I cried hard. I just hated this so much. "Maybe I should go home... Being at school like this isn't good..." I said softly.
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Post by Luna on Feb 12, 2011 10:35:12 GMT -5
I narrowed my eyes. "If you do, I'm coming with you."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 12, 2011 10:59:07 GMT -5
"I really wish you'd just stay here... I don't want you having to waste your time with me just because I'm depressed...." I said softly, still crying softly.
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