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Post by Luna on Feb 14, 2011 6:58:41 GMT -5
"Crystal, you're an amazing friend. You're my best friend, and you have been ever since I moved in with... Dawn..." - I choked on my sister's name - "When I was ten years old and just needed someone."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 14, 2011 7:09:50 GMT -5
"Of course you know now that I needed help desperately at that time. I just wish that this had never happened. If I had been a good child to my parents then I'd be fine, but instead I always disobeyed..." I said softly as I cried. "Still that doesn't change what I've done to both of you. Sorina, you know that I had always loved Lucian. I loved him since I laid eyes on him, but mainly I was jealous. I thought I liked a guy who had no interest in me. That's how girls like me work. If a guy has no interest you fight and fight for the attention. Seeing the way you two felt about each other made me jealous. I never thought about your feelings, only my own. I only thought about how desperately I wanted him to be mine. Still he chose you and now my heart aches more. To know that he loves me in some form should be enough but it isn't. I want to stop hurting the both of you and just love who I was destined to but no matter how hard I try I can't... I'm so sorry..." I cried into my hands as I shook from my sobs.
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Post by Luna on Feb 14, 2011 7:14:26 GMT -5
I shook my head. "And I want to have a normal life where we can be with whomever we want and someone's not trying to kill us every other day," I said softly. "I want to make it possible for you two to be together, because you belong with him far more than I do, but I can't. Some things just can't change, Crystal."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 14, 2011 7:31:29 GMT -5
"Don't say that Sorina... He loves you far more than me. That wouldn't change. You deserve him far more than I do anyways..." I said softly as I cried.
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Post by Luna on Feb 14, 2011 16:22:02 GMT -5
I snorted. "I doubt that," I muttered.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 14, 2011 16:46:16 GMT -5
My eyes narrowed. "Don't believe me if you wish but it's exactly the truth. Ask him what he thinks..." I muttered softly as tears still rolled down my cheeks.
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Post by Luna on Feb 14, 2011 16:48:24 GMT -5
"I think I'll let him stay out of the girl emotions," I muttered with a trace of amusement. My eyes quickly grew serious again after that. "Crystal, it's not easy to accept things - but sometimes, you just... you have to."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 14, 2011 18:20:28 GMT -5
"But it's not true... It's not that I'm not accepting it. It's just that you don't know the truth of it all. I know he loves you far more than anything. Without the soulmate bond I'm sure you two would still fall in love. I know without it Thomas and I wouldn't have... I might have fallen more in love with Alex though... I don't know... I might be alone..." I cried softly. "More than I already am I mean..." I muttered softly and bit my lip, praying to God that she hadn't heard that...
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Post by Luna on Feb 14, 2011 18:24:05 GMT -5
"Crystal, how on earth could you say you're alone?" I demanded sharply.
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 14, 2011 19:17:49 GMT -5
"I didn't mean to say that... I'm sorry. If anything I didn't mean it like that..." I said softly, lowering my head.
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Post by Luna on Feb 14, 2011 21:14:45 GMT -5
I shook my head. "Crystal, do you think you're alone?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 14, 2011 22:05:39 GMT -5
"No not really... I don't really know... I'm just all confused and upset... I really just want to go to sleep now and get this day over with. Too many memories wrapped in my mind right now..." I said softly. That was when the door rang. I could tell it was Alex. "Come on upstairs!" I called. He came up to me. "Oh Crystal..." he cried as he set down whatever he had in his hand and hugged me so tightly. "I know this is a bad day for you. Not only my mistake but your parents' as well haunt you on this day. I'm so very sorry Crissy... I hope you can forgive me," he said softly as he hugged me tighter. "Don't blame yourself... It wasn't your fault at all. Your parents wanted to move. You had no say in it... It wasn't your fault..." I cried. He looked deep into my eyes. "I'll love you forever and you know I'll always regret not telling you I loved you far sooner. I missed out on the perfect girl..." he said and kissed my cheek. He then held out what he gave me. "Here I knew you'd be upset so I bought you your favorite ice cream and a teddy bear," he said and I hugged him tightly. "I love you so much..." I cried. "It's no problem at all. I've got to go for a little bit now. I promise I'll come check back in on you later okay?" he asked. I nodded. He looked at Sorina. "Take care of here for me please," he said and then left. I looked at her. "This thing's kind of big... You want to share it with me? It's chocolate chip cookie dough," I asked softly, feeling a little better now.
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Post by Luna on Feb 14, 2011 22:07:27 GMT -5
I chuckled. "I'd love to."
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Post by jlcgurl on Feb 14, 2011 23:04:54 GMT -5
"Good," I giggled softly. I got us each a spoon. "Here I'll turn on a good movie that maybe will cheer me up. I picked a random good romantic comedy that I knew we'd both enjoy. Eating ice cream and spending time with my best friend really was the perfect way to cheer me up. Now that Sorina live with me I have felt less alone. I hugged here tightly. "I love you, Sorina. I'll always have you so I know I'm never alone," I said softly as tears rolled down my cheeks.
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Post by Luna on Feb 15, 2011 7:08:53 GMT -5
I grinned and rolled over on my belly, kicking my feet slightly in the air. It was a position of complete relaxation for me, and it was very rare. "I love you too."
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