|
Post by Luna on Jul 13, 2010 21:11:39 GMT -5
"They came because they're cold-blooded psychopathic killers," he replied flatly, and sat down beside her, staring at her with an unwavering intensity in his bright eyes. "You left to fight, and then they took Rose because again, they're cold-blooded, psychopathic killers. So no, it isn't your fault."
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Jul 13, 2010 22:16:49 GMT -5
I shook my head then layed it on his shoulder. I knew he was right, but inside I still felt guilty.
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Jul 28, 2010 18:42:22 GMT -5
{Vivian} I raised my head off the ground. It hurt so much from how fast and hard the wolf girl had pushed me down. It wasn't surprising that while I was knocked out I kept remembering about my lover. I then remebered the scenes yet again as I walked into the woods. {In her thoughts} I was 10 as I ran through the woods, crying, trying to get as far away from my house and my town as I could. I came across a little house with a 12 year old boy standing outside with a book in his hands. I stood back as I saw him set the book down and use his hands to create a ball of fire. I gasped, surprised at the fact that he was a sorcerer, and he turned and looked at me. He smirked as he used the same power to put the fire out. He walked over to me, raising his brows. "Hello, who are you, and what are you doing in this part of the woods, all alone?" I stared at the boy with curiousity. He was really cute. "I'm Vivian, Vivian Garnier. Yes, of the powerful witch family. I'm sick and tired of everyone expecting so much of me, so I ran away." He smiled and said, "I'm Kyle. I'm a sorcerer if you couldn't tell. What power do you have? I know a lot about witches." I shrugged and said, "Telekinesis." He grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to his house. "Show me what you've got." he said moving back. "I'm not that good. Like I said, people expected too much from me, and I didn't want to learn." I said frowning. "Just show me something." he said smiling lightly. I sighed and found a decent sized boulder. I picked it up and threw it at a tree. The rock shattered. I turned to him and shrugged. "Not bad." he said. "I can train you to be a sorcerer if you'd like. You can live with me as well." he smiled and kissed my cheek. "I'd love that." I said turning to him and hugging him. We had spent all of our time together for the next four years. He was killed by a pack of werewolves and I ran off to Amenia. I had kept the ring he gave me to use with sorcerery. I swore to never use it again. "That's it. I need to use my ring." I said smiling. I ran straight for my house. I found the drawer that I had put it in and grabbed it. I slid it on my finger and smiled. I ran outside and practiced my sorcerery before I ran back to Lacey and Ebony. I had to prove to them that I was better now. This wasn't going to be easy.
|
|
|
Post by Luna on Aug 25, 2010 21:16:22 GMT -5
"Crystal." Kierlan's voice was firm, but not unkind. He gently wrapped one arm around her waist and drew her closer, resting his chin on her head. "It's going to be okay. It isn't like we're not going to get her back," he murmured softly.
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Aug 25, 2010 21:44:39 GMT -5
"I love you a lot Kierlan. You have no idea how much you mean to me. There's no other guy I would like to be with right now. As long as I have you around to help me through the pain I'm fine." I said smiling gently. I moved my head to look into his eyes. I looked at him, and gently leaned forward and kissed his cheek. I leaned back and smiled sweetly at him.
|
|
|
Post by Luna on Aug 25, 2010 21:56:57 GMT -5
"I love you too, Crystal." He was grinning crookedly, but his voice was soft and serious. He inclined his head and tilted her chin up to look into his deep blue eyes, and now the crooked grin faded, leaving his eyes gentle and intense. "I'm here for you for as long as you need me. You know that, right?"
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Aug 26, 2010 22:01:10 GMT -5
"Yeah I do. That's why I trust you with my heart. I know that you care deeply for me. That's why I love you so much. I don't know where I'd be without you." I said as a few more tears fell.
|
|
|
Post by Luna on Aug 26, 2010 22:06:51 GMT -5
Kierlan held her tightly against him, brushed a few stray wisps of hair out of her face, and softly kissed her forehead. "Well, that's why I'm not leaving." He brushed the tears off her face gently with his index finger, still holding her in his deep blue gaze. "Don't cry, Crystal. Like I said, everything's going to be fine... we'll work out all this drama and confusion eventually."
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Aug 29, 2010 12:43:11 GMT -5
I looked down so he couldn't see some more tears fall. "I'm sorry. It's so hard to control the pain I hold inside. No matter what anyone does or says no one can save me from the pain I have inisde. I've thought people could. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I don't belong here. I've caused a lot of trouble for a ton of people. I don't understand life at all." I said softly most of it was to myself, but of course I knew he could hear me.
|
|
|
Post by Luna on Aug 29, 2010 12:51:33 GMT -5
"Crystal..." He held her even tighter, stroking her hair rhythmically with one hand and wrapping the other arm around her shoulder so that she was pressed against him. "I hate how hard your life is," he murmured, just loud enough for her to hear. "You're so sweet - you don't deserve any of this." He turned a little so he could stare into her eyes again. "You don't deserve it, and it isn't your fault. Do you understand that, Crystal?"
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Aug 29, 2010 17:49:37 GMT -5
Somehow all the rage and misery inside me swelled up. I then grabbed something off my bed-side table. I bowed my head so that my hair would cover my face. "I know. I'm not sure why God has given me this life. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to accomplish with it." I said as tears rolled down my cheeks. I hid the object in my hand. "I know what would be best for everyone. I should have done it years ago. Maybe now is the best time. Sure it won't be best for everyone, but at least they'll be safe....." I said softly. I knew he probably had no clue what I was talking about. I lifted my head and opened my hand. I revealed a knife I had kept for protection when I needed it, but now it would be used to protect everyone else. Tears fell as I got out of his grip, stood up, and walked to the window. I pointed the knife at my chest, right where my heart is. I turned around and looked at him. "I need to kill myself. It will be best for everyone." I said as tears kept falling. I knew he would argue and try to talk me out of this, but I had no other choice. I would never find peace in this world, and neither will anyone else if I don't do this.
|
|
|
Post by Luna on Aug 29, 2010 18:07:11 GMT -5
"Crystal." Kierlan hopped lightly off the bed, holding her in a long blue gaze. His voice was intense, and trembling just the slightest bit. "Sweetheart, don't do this. I know your life is awful, but you have people to help you through it. You have Sorina, Dawn, Shadow, Lucian, Fate... you have me." He moved towards her slowly, inconspicuously. "You can't just leave us. You have no idea how deeply that would affect us. Crystal." His voice was low now, almost inaudible. "Crystal, I love you. Hand me the knife. Okay?"
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Aug 29, 2010 18:17:00 GMT -5
"I've spent my life trying to make others happy. The only question that goes through my mind is not, 'Is this what I want?' or 'Is this what's best?', but 'Will this help others?' I know it will hurt others, but I will feel everyone will be safe without me. Fate doesn't need me. You should've seen the way I was acting towards her. I was only trying to find my way out of depression, but I was scaring her. She'll have Matt to love her. The same for the rest of you. You all would be much better off without me. It would keep you from future harm I would cause. Maybe even your own death. Let me do this. It's what's best for eveyone." I cried and my grip tightend on the knife as I moved it close to my chest. It was lightly touching my skin. If I was human it would cause a little blood to drip.
|
|
|
Post by Luna on Aug 29, 2010 18:38:30 GMT -5
"Crystal, please." Kierlan was on the verge of a breakdown now, but he was also only a couple steps away. If he could get the knife down far enough to where he could grab it... "Please, you can't do this." He locked her in a long, deep blue gaze. "You can't kill yourself. I couldn't live with that, Crystal. I couldn't live knowing you died and I couldn't stop it."
|
|
|
Post by jlcgurl on Aug 30, 2010 19:42:23 GMT -5
Tears kept falling as I said, "I can't live like this. No one understands. You may be able to calm the pain to where I can put on a fake smile for y'all to hide the pain that always burns inside, but you don't have to feel the pain of being rejected from everyone you love. I feel as if even more rejection is soon to come, and I can't stand it. I'm not just doing this to keep my friends from getting in trouble and from worrying about me, but to keep me from living through the future pain I fear I will go through soon. It will save me the trouble later on, and will keep someone else from stopping me. I know if I was in this situation with Lucian...." I broke off there. I was trying to hold back the huge amount of tears that would soon fall, but I couldn't restrain any longer. The tears fell faster as I said, "He probably wouldn't even care..." This made me move the knife closer a little bit of blood dripped and I winced a little.
|
|