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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 17, 2010 11:56:49 GMT -5
He struck me so hard it was hard to hold back a scream. I never imagined it'd hurt this much. Tears were streaming down my face as I continued sobbing. When he finished beating me I felt pain all over my backside. "I'm truly very sorry. I just can't live with myself. I promise I'll stop though. I know you and Sorina care, and that's why you both do this stuff to me. I hate that I'm this way. I want to change. I want to be able to, but I don't know how anymore. Like I said I get tired of trying. I hope I haven't hurt you too much inside. I'm sorry...." I said, continually sobbing. I tried to get myself up but I was hurting so much. He bent down and picked me up. He studied me for a second and sighed. "Come downstairs so we can talk to Sunny. You need to apologize to her as well." he said and I groaned deeply, "You sound like my father...." He growled, wrapped his hand around my bicep, and pulled me forward. He led me downstairs. Sorina's eyes went wide when she saw me. "What did you do?" she demanded Lucian. Tears continued to fall. "He beat me." I stated softly. "You did what?" she said as her eyes got wider. "I'm fine. It definitely wasn't as bad as when my parents did. Plus, it's straightening me out inside. I know it's weird to say, but I really needed that."
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 17, 2010 20:39:55 GMT -5
“Ugh, what I would give to have my knife back...” I muttered softly. I regretted the words right as they slipped out. I knew Lucian heard. I saw his eyes narrow and I winced inside. “Am I really going to have to do this again?” he asked stepping closer to me. I stepped back. Thomas watched us curiously. Lucian grabbed my arm and pulled me over to him, making me squeal. Tears fell unwillingly. “What’s going on?” Thomas asked with fury racing through him. “Well Crystal here has brought herself into more trouble. She had kept saying that she wanted to kill herself, and she almost did. I had to knock some sense into her, literally. It seems I going to have to beat her yet again…Don’t try to stop me, either of you.” He said looking at Thomas with his narrowed eyes. “I’m sorry Crystal, but Lucian’s right. You shouldn’t be doing these things. It hurts me to think about him beating you, but hurts me twice as much inside to think of you killing yourself. You need to stop doing things like that…” he said and I winced. Tears fell faster as Lucian gripped me tighter and pulled me away. I was pleading for him to stop. “Princess, you know I don’t want to do this, but I have no other choice…” he said and threw me on the ground. I felt the metal rod hit my backside and I screamed in pain. He continued hitting me. I just kept screaming as tears fell from my eyes. I wanted to fight him, but I knew that wouldn’t be the best idea. “Now have you learned your lesson or shall I continue beating you?” Lucian growled. “You might as well kill me yourself, because I’m never going to learn…I’m a hopeless wreck. You can’t fix me. I’m too far broken. I’ve tried to survive. This is my end point. It is and I know it…” I said continually sobbing.
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Post by Luna on Oct 18, 2010 11:09:32 GMT -5
{Lucian} I growled with mixed fury and frustration, threw the rod to the side, and reached down, jerking the much smaller girl to her feet. Keeping a tight grip on her arm to hold her still, I slapped her hard across the face. "Crystal, I'm not going to kill you. You know that. I'm doing this to save you. Why can't you just let this go?" I said through clenched teeth.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 18, 2010 15:50:38 GMT -5
"I'm sorry...I just can't live like this. It's all gonna kill me eventually. You making me suffer isn't making it better, and it's shown that beating me won't help. There's nothing else you can do. You've tried your best, but it's not enough...Just get over me. Like I got over you..." I said sobbing. I regretted the last words as they came out. Why was I continuing to hurt him like this? I hated doing this to him. Though it was all so true. It was exactly how it felt to me.
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Post by Luna on Oct 18, 2010 15:54:38 GMT -5
"Princess," I whispered, pulling her tightly against me. I wrapped one around her back, letting some of my warmth spread to her. With the other, I gently stroked her hair. "I never wanted to hurt you," I murmured. "But I also can't let you keep doing this to yourself, and I can't just... get over you. It's nowhere near that simple. You're as much a part of me as Sunny, or the wolf blood in my veins."
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 18, 2010 18:38:27 GMT -5
I felt Thomas approach and I turned towards him. My tears still falling. I had no words for Lucian. I couldn't bare to say anything more to him. All I'll end up doing is hurt him further. "May I speak with her for a moment? I think I can help.." Thomas said softly. I tried reading his mind but it was blocked yet again. I hated when he did that.
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Post by Luna on Oct 18, 2010 19:44:16 GMT -5
I nodded soundlessly and stepped back. My eyes stayed narrowed.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 19, 2010 19:21:37 GMT -5
Thomas walked over to me quickly. He wrapped his arms around me delicately. "Crystal, I'm sorry. You need to be shown more love. The pain you've been going through is really rough. I love you very much... I need to show you the same passion I did the first time we kissed. I need to heal the pain again...." he said and leaned forward and kissed my lips. The passion was exactly the same as the first time we kissed, but it pained me. I pulled away from him. "I'm sorry.. I can't do this..." I sobbed falling to the ground. It hurt to stand and I also just wanted to cry. I couldn't help all of my thoughts. Thomas saw the main reason fairly quickly. "It's because of him..." he said softly. "I'm sorry I really am. It just hurts at the moment, and I want to stop I do I just can't handle all of this..." I sobbed. It hurt Thomas deeply. I know it did. "Well I've tried... Me trying to show you passion doesn't help and Lucian beating you doesn't help either then what are we gonna do....?" Thomas asked. "Just give up on me. You've both tried your best. I'm helpless. You can't fix me! Just kill me or let me kill myself!" I screamed as the tears continued to fall.
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Post by Luna on Oct 20, 2010 8:55:52 GMT -5
I slipped quietly back in when her screams reached me. For a moment I said nothing, my gaze flickering between Crystal and Thomas, and then I said in a deceptively light voice, "Well, that was helpful."
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 20, 2010 18:53:14 GMT -5
"Well it's your fault. She loves you more it seems. She always has and always will..." he muttered softly. It hurt me, but I couldn't speak. I was hurting too much. I could feel him quickly searching through my mind. "I think I know what to do..." he said softly. He then left, and I heard him and someone talking. I couldn't detect the other voice. I then heard the other voice yell, "What?! She wants to kill herself?! Oh I'm going to deal with this!" I then knew who it was. I cringed instantly. Alex came up to me. He pulled me off the ground and slapped me across the face. "What the hell is wrong with you?!" he asked forcing me to look in his eyes. I continued to sob. "I'm sorry, okay? I just can't live like this any more. I've hurt all of you. I know I have. I need to get rid of all of this pain you're making me suffer through. All of you need to get over me!" I said sobbing.
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Post by Luna on Oct 20, 2010 20:02:09 GMT -5
I rolled my eyes. "Again, Princess, it's so not that simple. You've gotten a lot of stubborn people to care deeply about you, and now you're pretty much stuck with us." I shrugged.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 20, 2010 21:42:24 GMT -5
"Now look at me.." he said moving my face to look into his eyes. "Promise me you'll quit this or you'll regret it. You remember how I use to beat you? Well I swear I'll do it again but much worse if you don't promise to cut this out." he said and I winced remembering the few times he's ever beat me. He's barely ever beat me but when he does it hurts like hell. Its even worse than when Lucian has. It's very similar to how hard my parents use to. Maybe even worse. I was very scared, but I couldn't promise to stop. I knew I would probably break another promise and that would make him even more mad with me. "Three.....two...one...Okay then. I guess we'll have to do this the hard way..." Alex said grabbing my arm and pulling me towards an empty closet. I was crying and begging him to stop. I was trying to use all of my force. "Could one of you help me out here? She's being very difficult. I don't think you or her would like it very much if you were in the room while I beat her, because of the way I do things. I just need help gettin her in here..." Alex said and I started to cry more. I knew Lucian would help him. I was being treated like a ten year old....
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Post by Luna on Oct 20, 2010 21:49:16 GMT -5
I didn't bother to speak, just stepped forward and grabbed her arm tightly. I pulled her forward, not really having to exert much of my strength and shoved her into the closet. I looked away, avoiding her eyes. I wasn't in favor of her being in even more pain, but if it really did snap her out of her suicide obsession, it was worth it. "Sorry, Princess," I said softly, and stepped out of sight.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 20, 2010 22:01:14 GMT -5
{Alex} I shut the door and took off my belt. She winced, trying to back away from me. "Take off your skirt and your underwear..." I said to her. She didn't move at all. She just stood in her place and continued to cry. "Do I have to treat you like a ten year old?" I asked and walked over to her. I grabbed her, held her down, and took off her bottom clothing. I kept her down on the ground, and I struck her with the metal part of the belt with all of my strength. I was creating a lot of bruises on her skin. Eventually she started to bleed. Typically I would stop at this point, but this time I just continued. She needed to be beaten a lot more. She was trying to fight me. I struck her even harder a few times and she stopped. Then I gave her a few more licks and stopped. She continued to sob for a while. I helped her put her clothes back on. I left the closet so she could finish her crying and think. I put my belt back on, and Thomas and Lucian watched me carefully. No doubt they were wondering what I did to her. She finally walked out of the closet cautiously. I saw her wince from the pain, and she fell to the ground. "I give in..." she said softly.
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Post by Luna on Oct 21, 2010 10:52:36 GMT -5
I sighed and picked her up gently. I seemed to be doing that a lot lately. "Princess, this could have been so much easier for everyone if you had just listened to reason in the first place," I said softly, and lay her on the couch. When I drew back, I realized my hands were coming away bright red. "What did he do?"
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