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Post by Luna on Oct 31, 2010 16:06:32 GMT -5
I blinked in shock, completely taken aback. "Crystal... mio dio..." I kicked the rod out of sight and bent down to pick her up, careful that I didn't touch any of her many bruises and make the pain any worse. "I'm sorry," I whispered. "Okay? I know I was probably nothing short of the cruelest psychopathic jerk in existence when you first met me. I know how much I hurt you... I know how much emotional pain I caused for you, how much physical I got Sunny into, I - if I could take it all back, I would. In fact, if I could go back and decide not to come here, I might just do it, because without me maybe your lives would have stayed... well, not normal, never normal. But routine, maybe. Kept that same basic rhythm that I threw completely off-balance. But I..." I sighed softly. "I have changed for meeting you two. I have no clue how either of you managed it, but I have. I'm always going to have a dark side, that's something I can't get rid of, but I do love you, Crystal. I love you both. That's why, right now, I'm trying to save you."
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 31, 2010 19:42:49 GMT -5
Tears rushed down my cheeks and I closed my eyes tightly. "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to say those things. My mind kind of took control... I cause so much pain so easily... Ugh! I need to be killed. Just someone, put me out of my misery! Please! I'm begging!" I shouted to the heavens.
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Post by Luna on Oct 31, 2010 19:50:20 GMT -5
I stared her mutely, in mixed sadness and frustration, for a long moment before an idea suddenly struck me. I instantly froze over my expression, disguising my thoughts and making my eyes cold and remote. Then I set her down, wrapped one hand around her arm in a crushing, unbreakable grip, and pushed her hard against the wall. With the other I pulled the knife she had given me from my coat and rested the tip against her chest. "Fine, Princess," I hissed. "If that's really what you want me to do..." I pushed it a little, just enough to elicit a steady trickle of blood.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 31, 2010 20:01:08 GMT -5
I closed my eyes tightly. "Lucian... Please... Stop..." I said softly through sobs, trying to struggle. I really didn't want this... I knew this wasn't at all what I wanted and I was trying my best to end it now. I hoped he would listen. There was something inside of me trying to send me a message about this situation but I couldn't quite figure it out yet.
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Post by Luna on Oct 31, 2010 20:07:48 GMT -5
"Really?" I growled. I moved the knife and pressed it to her neck, my eyes narrowing sinisterly. "But don't you want to die, Princess?" I asked in my softest, darkest voice.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 31, 2010 20:14:14 GMT -5
It automatically clicked that he knew I didn't want this. That deep inside I'd try all that I could to get him to stop. He didn't really want to kill me, but a major part of me was too scared to risk it. "I'm sorry... I don't. I honestly and truly don't. Please stop...." I sobbed, trying not to struggle as much now, because one wrong move would be the end of me.
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Post by Luna on Oct 31, 2010 20:35:09 GMT -5
I tipped her chin up with the blade of the knife, forcing her to look directly in my eyes. "Are you sure?" I growled.
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 31, 2010 20:44:27 GMT -5
"Yes I swear I'll stop... I'm sorry..." I cried and began to shake. I knew so deeply that I didn't want this and he knew that. He was trying to show me that through fear. It was exactly what I needed.
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Post by Luna on Oct 31, 2010 20:49:22 GMT -5
I pulled back a little, enough to where she could breathe freely again, but not completely. "And it's going to last longer than about a day right now, right?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Oct 31, 2010 21:48:32 GMT -5
"Yes I swear. I'll try my hardest to keep this out of my thoughts and I won't bring it up any longer. Just please stop..." I cried begging him to put the knife down.
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Post by Luna on Nov 1, 2010 6:11:13 GMT -5
I stayed still for another few moments, studying her expression carefully, then I wordlessly nodded and slipped the knife back beneath my coat. I lightly tipped up her chin and held it there, looking right into her eyes. "I really am sorry, Crystal," I said softly.
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 1, 2010 6:17:16 GMT -5
I fell forward instantly and sobbed into his chest. "No, I'm sorry... I love you so much, and I know I never really wanted to die inside. That's why I wasn't letting you, and you knew that. I'm so sorry..." The pain stilll burning all over my backside was ignored.
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Post by Luna on Nov 1, 2010 10:57:41 GMT -5
I didn't think twice about wrapping my arms around her back and gently pulling her close to me. I rested my chin on her head lightly, providing quiet solace. "I didn't just mean I was sorry for threatening you, Crystal. I'm sorry I turned your semi-normal life upside down. I'm sorry I hurt you so much and never knew or cared. I'm sorry for everything. Okay?"
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Post by jlcgurl on Nov 1, 2010 17:54:49 GMT -5
I cried harder. I wanted to tell him that he didn't mess up my life. That I was just upset and only said those things to get it out, but the thing was that they were all true in my mind. I had always felt that my life changed ever since I layed eyes on Lucian... That one look in the hallway. I smiled and waved and he just walked off. Then of course him seeing Sorina later on. It all just changed everything. If I hadn't been so jealous... "It's not your fault.. If I hadn't been so jealous... I wouldn't have told Sorina I liked you and then she wouldn't have freaked out and then I wouldn't have gotten upset and told her I was a werewolf... I hadn't done that it would all be so different. I was just jealous. I could see a connection between you and Sorina. I hated to see you too together so I tried everything I could to get you to like me... Sorina thought I was crazy but I was too stubborn to give up. Until I knew for sure that I would never have you... Of course even now my heart hasn't given in..." I said softly. Thinking about it all made me cry even harder.
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Post by Luna on Nov 1, 2010 18:12:57 GMT -5
"Crystal... I wish I could help you. I really do," I murmured, and drew back a little, holding her in my long blue gaze. I didn't try to withdraw my arms. "What I want to know," I said softly, raising my eyebrows, "Is how either of you turned me into such an enormous softie."
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